Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Swiss Books

I am saddened to say that I have had to remove my Book about Switzerland from the online bookstores  - or more correctly said  - it has been removed.

My books are memoirs written in short story form, with a focus on a shared and human journey though life . I am convinced that we, as a unified humanity, share the kaleiderscope of feelings, experiences, challenges and joys - though we may process and work with the nuances in this 'painting of life' in our own uniqe way - nevertheless I find it profoundly beautiful to air some of those personal experiences and  feelings in the spirit of unity. How else can we join hands in our aspiration to evolve, learn and gain the clarity of spiritual and emotional wholeness.

My first husband, a Swiss man, for reasons of his own, apparently does not want his name or his past to be known or shared.  Therefore he had my book removed from the internet.

I will re-write those chapters in order to "hide" him, before publishing my Swiss book again.

In my Swiss book, I wrote a chapter about my first marriage, which was written as a deeply intense mix of tragedy and beauty because we lost our baby girl. The beauty of her birth is something that lights up my heart and to this day brings me waves of joy - the tragedy of her death leaves a wound. Perhaps my writing did step on her father's personal boundaries and expose too much for comfort - and yet it is my life I write about. He was a part of my life for ten years.

I will have to reflect on how to re-write this part of my life while respecting his privacy.

Writing for me, has been such a comfort and form of authentic expression. 

I also published a tribute to our daughter here:


Her grave has been taken away, as is the Swiss custom. After 20 years, graves are removed.

Can you imagine my joy when I found an online site to pay tribute to my daughter, it was almost like having her grave. AND  I finally was able to have her birth certificate in my hands, after all these years.  In Switzerland births and deaths are noted in a 'Blue Book, which only the husband has access to. Maybe things have changed now.

I took the time to request her birth certificate, which was sent to me from Switzerland and I joyously posted it with her tribute.  My tears of joy were so deeply rooted in the heart - and yet this too has been removed by Faye's father.  Her birth certificate was removed a few days ago.  I miss seeing it on her tribute.

The older Swiss culture is very private - and though I respect that trait,  I am aware that, in my view, my Swiss ex-husband had a particularly rigid outlook on life.

I will honour the memory of our daughter for my whole life - and I celebrate her existence in this world. It puzzles me why her father would not wish this to be publicly known, yet  I respect his choice, even though it appears to be denying his own footprints in life.

Here she is, my little angel who would now be 37 years old


Savina Cavallo said...

My soul rejoices with you in remembrance of your daughter. I feel you through your writing and the beauty of your feelings comes through everything you create, whether it be your pictures or your books/blogs.
I believe there is purpose in everything; maybe something even better will come through when you rewrite those chapters for your Swiss book.
Please keep me posted.
Love to you.

Charmiene's Books said...

Thankyou so much Savina, yes in many ways I am looking forward to re-writing those chapters, as it seems that this would be the next step on this 'writing journey'.
I really appreciate your comments

Carole said...

My dear friend,
I stand with you as you continue to honour your daughter's memory in such difficult circumstances.
I believe that through your writing, & re-writing, you will find healing for your soul.I shall continue to pray for peace in your heart.
Love Carole.x

Anonymous said...

Dearest Sita,

When I received your email in which you told about having to change things and you sent this link, I didn't know what to say.

Such a beautiful baby! Such beautiful souls, both of yours! I can't even imagine what you've gone through. I have always admired your inner strength.

I'm so happy I have all of your books, the books as they are before being changed. I hope that in rewriting your books, you find much more healing, peace and happiness!

You have always been and still are an inspiration not only to me but to everyone who is Blessed enough to cross paths with you, even for a brief moment!

Much, Much Love and Aloha ~


Brenda Dow said...

As a mom, I will swallow this sob that wants to be emitted after reading of your beautiful Faye...... oh Charmiene, this part of your life was such a challenge for you but I see that you have the most beautiful spirit of reconciling happenings about you!!! I am very sorry for your loss and the difficulties that are there to keep your wishes from happening.
It is wonderful to view your RB site and call you friend. Wonderful pleasure surrounds your images and writings!!!
Much love,
aka Brenda