My books are memoirs written in short story form, with a focus on a shared and human journey though life . I am convinced that we, as a unified humanity, share the kaleiderscope of feelings, experiences, challenges and joys - though we may process and work with the nuances in this 'painting of life' in our own uniqe way - nevertheless I find it profoundly beautiful to air some of those personal experiences and feelings in the spirit of unity. How else can we join hands in our aspiration to evolve, learn and gain the clarity of spiritual and emotional wholeness.
My first husband, a Swiss man, for reasons of his own, apparently does not want his name or his past to be known or shared. Therefore he had my book removed from the internet.
I will re-write those chapters in order to "hide" him, before publishing my Swiss book again.
In my Swiss book, I wrote a chapter about my first marriage, which was written as a deeply intense mix of tragedy and beauty because we lost our baby girl. The beauty of her birth is something that lights up my heart and to this day brings me waves of joy - the tragedy of her death leaves a wound. Perhaps my writing did step on her father's personal boundaries and expose too much for comfort - and yet it is my life I write about. He was a part of my life for ten years.
I will have to reflect on how to re-write this part of my life while respecting his privacy.
Writing for me, has been such a comfort and form of authentic expression.
I also published a tribute to our daughter here:
TRIBUTE TO FAYE
Her grave has been taken away, as is the Swiss custom. After 20 years, graves are removed.
Can you imagine my joy when I found an online site to pay tribute to my daughter, it was almost like having her grave. AND I finally was able to have her birth certificate in my hands, after all these years. In Switzerland births and deaths are noted in a 'Blue Book, which only the husband has access to. Maybe things have changed now.
I took the time to request her birth certificate, which was sent to me from Switzerland and I joyously posted it with her tribute. My tears of joy were so deeply rooted in the heart - and yet this too has been removed by Faye's father. Her birth certificate was removed a few days ago. I miss seeing it on her tribute.
The older Swiss culture is very private - and though I respect that trait, I am aware that, in my view, my Swiss ex-husband had a particularly rigid outlook on life.
I will honour the memory of our daughter for my whole life - and I celebrate her existence in this world. It puzzles me why her father would not wish this to be publicly known, yet I respect his choice, even though it appears to be denying his own footprints in life.